I know that it's been a long time since I've blogged. To be truthfully honest with you, I've been in a place where I was struggling to see the light. It took me a few months to truly understand that the reason I couldn't see the light was that I was looking for the light on the outside of me. I was scrolling, reading, and writing a lot and I still felt a heaviness that blanketed my soul. I wanted to isolate myself, I wanted to be alone so I could process the feelings that were consuming me. It was real and scary and two days before my spring break my c.o.m.b. (check on me buddy) told me that she didn't like what she was seeing and feeling when she saw me. She said that when she comes around me she feels and receives the essence of flowers and butterflies, but that wasn't what she was getting on that day. I couldn't muster up the strength and I told her that I was depleted. I felt like I lost my mojo (LOL). She told me that I had one week to find myself again. This Journey towards mental, physical and emotional freedom is real and sometimes it feels like it is just easier to throw in the towel, but after the session I had today with a sis-star of mine Jessica Jaiel Monroe, I realized that I don't have that option. I don't get to throw in the towel. I can use the towel to wipe my sweat and to dry my tears, but I don't get to throw in the towel when someone else is depending on me to make it. This pain that I have to bear isn't just about me. I was created to turn life's pain into passion and to show others how to do it too along the way. So in the midst of creating balance with social media, work life, home life and being CEO of Dee's Passion Filled Experience, I have to make a new vow to myself. I will not let comparison be the thief of my joy. I am Deepassionate1 and God has ordained EVERY SINGLE STEP of my life. I don't have to chase after things or people anymore because the people and things that are aligned to this season of my life will find me. I am on a mission and I can't afford to stop, there are too many seeds that need to be planted in my fertile soil and too many airplanes that need to take flight from my runway.
Eyes haven't seen and ears haven't heard what God is about to do for me.